After thirty years as a meth addict and alcohol abuser, numerous times in jail, three times in prison and on a fast train to hell, I had a stroke. On a gurney to the ambulance, I looked up to the sky and said, “I hear you now, God.”
That was almost three years ago and I knew it was do or die. I walked away from everything and everyone I knew and put my faith in Jesus Christ. A friend set me up with a job and a place to live in another town. I started going to church and I started seeking God more and more.
It is amazing. The more I seek God, the more I find Him. He is really working in my life. I still have battles every day, but now I am in the Lord’s army. I find myself changing in many different ways.
God has given me freedom from the lingering sadness of a childhood filled with loss of a mother and abuse from a father, from scars and anger toward an abusive spouse, hurts of homelessness and failed relationships and the ultimate agony of seeing my grown daughter being sentenced to 25 years in prison because of addiction related mistakes.
I volunteer twice a week at the Cleveland County Jail through the ministry of the Oklahoma Jail & Prison Ministries organization. I love it! I feel the women can really relate to me and I can relate to them. Meth is a demon and it is taking a lot of people. I know how helpless it makes you feel. I feel the Lord wants me to reach people and I am trying to be obedient to Him. I feel the need to let them know that with God you can live a different life.
I feel there is more I can do now. I am searching for my next step in serving the Lord and I challenge you to do the same. I am so grateful and blessed.