In her own words Inmate
Adrianne, Oklahoma County jail
Hi my name is Adrianne and this is my testimony. When I was two years old, my parents got a divorce. I have a brother named Chris who is six years older than me. We would have to go to my dad’s house every other weekend which I didn’t like, being a mama’s girl. I thought by throwing a fit, I would get what I wanted. In sixth grade I was either suspended or had in school suspension. By seventh grade I was so disobedient towards my mom, not only did I get on probation, I ran away and stole my mom’s car. She reached the point where she could no longer handle me so she sent me to my dad’s to live. I ended up getting suspended one more time, so my dad took me to a girls’ home in Hutchinson, Kansas. I was 13 and felt alone. I got into my first fight, because someone told on me for smoking cigarettes. The counselors believed I had been sexually molested. For so long I’ve kept it buried. I felt if I had brought it out into the open it would cause more damage than good (plus it had been when I was around six years old). After that, I was suspended again and ended up on my way to another girls’ home in Tulsa. On my way there I happened to see a knife; I grabbed it and decided to cut myself. I hated myself. Girls always made fun of me. By the time of sixth grade I was still cutting myself and showed no emotion. After getting kicked out, I ended up in a psych ward. That didn’t last long either. Finally, I was able to move back in with my mom. Later, I met my new best friend and her sister. They asked me if I wanted to be skinny. I did, so they introduced me to meth. I had no idea at the time how much my life would fall apart. When I found out I was pregnant, I stopped doing drugs and partying. Sadly, when I went to the doctor, I discovered that my baby had died. I ended up delivering a dead fetus, which was devastating. I fell into a depression. I started partying harder until a blessing came. I gave birth to my daughter in March of 2007. Shortly thereafter, I met my first love. He played games and hurt me. We had an off and on relationship for about a year and a half, until I got pregnant. I had our son in November of 2009. My son’s dad was on his way to prison. I was afraid to be a single mom. Being alone led me back into doing drugs. That’s when I met my youngest son’s father. I gave birth to my third child in April of 2011. He treated me bad and left me with nothing. However, I kept taking him back. I ended up moving and got a job when my youngest was six months old. I thought everything was going smoothly, then with one wrong decision I lost it all. I let this guy babysit and without my permission he took my youngest on a drug run. He got pulled over, arrested and I lost my kids to DHS in July of 2012. I had completely lost everything that had meaning to my life. My job, my house, my car and the worst of all my babies. In November of 2012, I got arrested with my first felony. Released a month later, I assumed it was a good idea to stay at someone’s house who called themselves my friend. This good friend told me if I wanted to get high I’d have to shoot up, so I did. As my life continued falling out of control, I began to do escorting (prostitution) in March of 2014. I assumed my life was going good. Then I caught my second felony in November of 2014. I got out and started stealing checks from innocent people. Last year, I began generating numbers on my phone to people’s credit card numbers. I was living life to its fullest. Staying in executive and presidential suites in Mexico. I got away with so much. I thought I was invisible. Then in September of 2016, without realizing it my life took a turn for the best. This time being in jail, I started doing things different. I visited the chaplain in jail. I am so thankful for Mrs. Keitha. I became a new person. I became a born again Christian on February 9, 2016. Chaplain Re Berry has also helped me out. In October of 2016, I made trustee and have held my position going on six months. My favorite verse that has helped me is Jeremiah 29:13 “You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.” Psalm 46:10 “Be still, and know that I am God.” Philippians 4:13 “I can do everything through Christ. He gives me strength.” Not only have I become a changed, sober and happy person but I have realized my faults and mistakes. I’m ready to accept the things I cannot change and make a difference with a whole new attitude. Now I see things from a blessed mind. Finally, I am following in the Lord’s ways and I am being thankful. The Lord has shown me that patience is a virtue. The best part is I haven’t seen my kids in four years. About a month ago, my mom asked my Aunt Dee if I could see them, since she had adopted them. She finally said yes, if I keep a job and stay sober. That is God working miracles in my life. I thank everyone that has been here to support me and to those who chose not to give up on me. Lord, thank you for each day, it’s truly a blessing. I pray to the Father that He finds me ready for a program.